parking lot gigs

this post is really important because it’s something that I personally need to internalize if I want to move forward. well,

start here 2025jan snapshot

The following was what my start here page looked like in jan2025 My current recommended starting order for new visitors: (2024

shitwatch

I was looking through a transcript of a podcast episode I did with Chris Williamson of Modern Wisdom, and I noticed I mentione

jailbreak

(2025apr15) a thing I haven’t yet felt like I’ve done a good enough job of conveying is how desperately I sought to escape

perfectionism is avoidance

2026feb27– funnily i’m currently updating this while avoiding harder and more important posts– the creative discomfo

make collections

2026feb27: revisiting this post while reviewing my archives and thinking that I ought to be making collections on here too. al

madagascar

I recently watched the movie Madagascar (2005) for the first time — because of a compelling thread drawing parallels between

names

Naming things is hard. Categorizing things, which can be thought of as a form of naming things, is also hard. Nonetheless, thi

dreams

Wanted to have a master reference post for when I talk about dreams. There are a few stories I bring up repeatedly. To be upda

voltage

A letter from Ted Hughes to his son via Letters Of Note, Dear Nick, I hope things are clearing. It did cross my mind, last sum

interestingness

one – It’s 426pm. I have a thing at 7pm. And I might be interrupted sooner than that. I want to try and do something here

sg 2025 elections

it’s election season in Singapore, and for me personally the most striking thing is how little I seem to care about it. And

parenthood

(2025mar22) Lately I’ve been feeling in need of relief. I think a lot of this comes from the fact that my wife and I have be

tidying

My life is pretty good overall. I’m married to my best friend whom I’ve known for 25 years, and we have a beautiful baby b

sunset

I’ve told this story to multiple people now, so much so that it makes sense for me to write a blogpost about it. I was o

disorientation

ā€œI got a lot of things going on.ā€ Doesn’t everyone? I feel like I’ve been hearing multiple different people use the ph

legion

i was thrilled with a good name recently but it’s one that needs explaining so like 2010-2012 or so i did a lot of like,

quadrilemma

Back when I had a proper job from 2013-2018, I remember the dilemma I had every weekend– or ā€˜quadrilemma’, to be precise

eloquent peasant

I have a thousand things I want to write and no time or energy to write them properly, so I have to compromise and write some

sierra

I’ll be turning 35 in a few months. And my older cat probably isn’t going to make it that long. I got him when I was 22, b

internal conflicts

I was doing some much-overdue introspection and was faced with the following observations and thoughts: I notice that I have d

the times square problem

The Times Square problem is my way of talking about the problem of luridity. Imagine assuming that all of New York is like Tim

satisfaction

In this post I mostly repeat a bunch of stuff I’ve written about in the past about my creative process. It feels necessary f

chess

(2025may8) Chess is a game that’s both quite simple and absurdly complicated. The objective is to win by checkmating your op

goldratt’s the goal

There’s an endless supply of metaphors for the act of living. Life is like cooking. Life is like music. Life is war. Life is

phases

it’s just a phase / it’s not just a phase, mom! It’s true that younger people tend to not be so great at estimat

in search of relief

i freeze up when i try to be proper and do keynotes, so maybe i oughta write more casually. it’s hard to relax when somethin

ra1 fog

red alert fog When I was a young boy, about 8 or 9 years old, one of my favorite things was when a friend would invite some of

Aldous Huxley’s ‘If my library burned tonight’ (1948)

From the archive: Aldous Huxley ‘If my library burned tonight’ (1948), via houseandgarden.co.uk A 1948 essay by th

baudelaire

(2025jan01) Happy 2025, let’s dive right into it. I first discovered Charles Baudelaire (1821-1867) when I was working on my

problems are solvable

I believe that problems are solvable. There’s all sorts of things that go into solving a problem. Some problems are simple,

constraints2: animating spirit

constraints2: animating spirit – on bottlenecks, unfoldings, static vs dynamic again, the map is not the territory, the repr

fun

FUN2: GET TO THE NORMANDY (2024dec1) I wanna think more about the subject of having fun. Part of my motivation is that I want

adjacent possible

ā€œThe problems of the world cannot possibly be solved by skeptics or cynics whose horizons are limited by the obvious realiti

finding the right angles

I’m a good conversationalist. But I wouldn’t say I’m a natural at it. It’s something that I actively set out to get be

content marketing

I’m not sure what the current state of content marketing is today, but when I used to do that for a living in 2013-2018, the

flow garden

A similar visual I have in my mind is how a bit of food coloring spreads through clear water. I kinda wish it was a gif instea

lorelai

It’s 1046pm. I’d like to write and publish something. I have many unfinished drafts in various stages of disarray. It ofte

creative contexts

I had an invigorating conversation with my ex-boss and mentor Dinesh about how and why I’ve been creatively stuck in lately.

nothing contextualizes itself, and the context is always collapsing

The very first essay I published on this substack in 2022 was titled We were voyagers, and it was subtitled ā€œOn Nietzschean

universal cursed artifact

I keep wanting to write a post titled ‘universal cursed artifact’, that’s obviously about smartphones. when

hyperion and lazarus

There’s something very funny about how i’ve been spending the past 2 years struggling to figure out the container for my c

improv2: wooten

previous: improv while helping my ~1yo son go to sleep I was clicking around on YouTube and I ended up watching a rick beato i

blogmap

i was in the middle of a substack draft about continuity when i suddenly felt the impulse to go over to visakanv.com/blog/ and

consolidation meta

(written in substack) I can’t help myself, I love to go meta. Earlier this evening, my wife took my son out for a walk, givi

sort my notes with me

How do you know if you have a problem? I’m thinking particularly about my notes, but you could also talk about say, a drinki

sparring with the ego

writing on commutes to preserve creative spirit — minor success, patreon, ramen profitable — it’s a kind of purgatory ā€

notes on structure

(the beauty of) continuity

2. the beauty of continuity — what makes something beautiful? how are elements arranged harmoniously? how can continuity int

instagram

It’s 11:05pm. I’m freshly showered and I just got in bed. My 11mo son is fast asleep in his cot nearby. I have a decision

richest man in babylon

i’m finally reading The Richest Man In Babylon – I’d seen in recommended several times in multiple contexts over the yea

on messes

I had a moment last night when I did this at my desk (evaluate my situation), and the first thought I had was ā€œobviously I s

anguished voyager

guilt > hunger > desk > messes > I have 48 ā€˜live’ drafts on my substack account, and I have the equivalent of

fasting

I experimented with fasting once. I had a chirpy colleague who was a big evangelist for it, and I was feeling laggardly, and s

diablo

i’ve known for a long time that i want to write something about diablo i could do the memoir thing but really i think i want

literacy

what is my conclusion? I think… ultimately it’s not possible for any one person to do everything, so it’s prudent for in

heroes3

I remember the first time I encountered Heroes of Might and Magic III (1999). I was 9 years old, at a birthday party of a frie

the history of tv, as told by @RonenV

The following is my (VV) copying of @RonenV‘s telling of the history of TV. Ronen spoke the whole thing out verbally (fu

frame studies

I’m changing the title of my substack from ā€œvoltaic verses āš”ļøā€ to ā€œframe studies šŸ–¼ļøā€. Should I explain? My

witcher3

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how to properly scope a project. Take The Witcher franchise. The Witcher today is famo

youtube

this is a collection post to collect links to other posts with transcripts of my youtube vids

terraces

A paragraph about what this post is for: this is meant to be a sequel to ā€˜the tavern and the temple’. well I guess it’s

50 opening lines

I have a lot of drafts. tbc

incompleteness and digressions

22jul2024 distractions I’ve been kind of embarrassed, maybe even ashamed, to note that there have been many instances now wh

simcity

2024sep4: I started playing a new game of Simcity 2000 in my browser, mainly out of nostalgia and curiosity. I never really un

undertaker

In Sylvester Stallone’s Netflix documentary, Sly, he talks about how, early in his acting career, he would get typecast

alice

i finally watched disney’s alice in wonderland (1951) for the first time a few weeks ago. i haven’t yet read lewis carroll

hard

I’ve been rediscovering lately that I’m too hard on myself. And I don’t mean this in the tedious interview question sens

hades

update: ended up rewriting this on substack: https://visakanv.substack.com/p/straight-outta-tartarus 2024sep11 One of my favor

CDs

backstory: I bought my first couple of CDs when I was about 12 years old, and over 20 years later I still consider them to be

chaotic monkey mind

For as long as I can remember, I’ve had a chaotic monkey mind that’s been both a blessing and curse. When I stop to think

fake games

what is the portal in this essay? i think the wild thing is that we play fake games with ourselves. we cargo cult ourselves. w

nora ephron, media theorist

5. Nora Ephron, Media Theorist — an overview of Sleepless in Seattle, Julie & Julia, You’ve Got Mail, and how each

tiles

one of my recurring curiosities is about… tiles ā€œThe word is derived from the French word tuile, which is, in turn, from t

himym

i try to notice things the opportune time to publish this post would be on the 20th anniversary of the book’s release, septe

babel

Historyproj… SG1990… Tamils…India…nonamerican… multipolar world… sidenote on english… gumroad readers… 3rd cul

afterimages

asdf a this might be surprising to some people– i feel like it shouldn’t be, but people get surprised by all sorts of thin

grieving lost media

I want to really get this right, to really feel the resonant heart of it that lets me let go of notes that no longer serve me.

cigarettes

really an essay about addiction, coping mechanisms, behavior change PSA: i’m going to be talking about cigarettes a bunch in

working episodically

magazines, chiarella, mens health, bloggers, herb caen, julie & julia… talk about tv? ✱ When I was a teenager I used t

OK Computer

babysleep I just put the baby to sleep. We were listening to Radiohead’s OK Computer, and he fell asleep at track 7: Fitter

containers

i’ve had a puzzle that’s been bothering me for about as long as i’ve been writing, though maybe i didn’t begin to prop

braided loops

“Hey friends! I had to cut my hair for military reasons again, so it happens every other year. I’m also continuing

kenny werner

I’m gonna throw it open. If you have a question on anything involving anything in the world, I can answer it. You know,

essay drafts mar2024

i just feel in my bones that there are about 5-12 essays knocking around inside me that if i just get out of my system i will

bullet essays

(2024mar16 thread)

essay teasers

i just feel in my bones that there are about 5-12 essays knocking around inside me that if i just get out of my system i will

lentil

it’s been almost 2 months since my last post and I just wanna spend maybe 30 minutes writing something and hitting send with

vannevar mentions

just for fun, collecting mentions of vannevar bush’s as we may think (1945) tbc

rereading old writing

reading my old writing and it’s striking how i wrote about so many of the same things, but far more tediously. writing i

beautiful noisy messes

i’m tired and i don’t have much time. i need to publish something or i’m going to go mad. i have a lot of tabs open. one

contemplate

I’ve spent a lot of the past two years thinking about how to do these substack essays. Recently, I was getting so frustrated

win_loop

have a draft of an essay i’ve sort of lazily idling on titled “win loops” and i might as well just tweet it

all the channels 2

all the channels 1 i wrote a whole book about introspection, in part because i believe i’m pretty good at it, and i believe

packaging problem

I was doing the dishes last night and listening to some year-old youtube vlogs of myself doing my monthly status updates. One

behavior change

One of the central questions of my life is, how much control or influence do I have over my own behavior, really? A lot of my

writing on commutes

writing on commutes From 2013 to 2018, I used to write diligently on my phone on my commutes. I’d write both on the way to w

aladdin

I woke up from a dream that was set in something like my brain’s remix of the old video game, The Prince of Persia. It remin

kwml

I heard about this book a long time ago, but I can’t remember where exactly. I do remember it being mentioned by Elliott Hul

writing involuntarily

I have fond memories of times I used to write. Right now it’s 755am on a Sunday morning – it’s the day of my wedding ann