lentil
it’s been almost 2 months since my last post and I just wanna spend maybe 30 minutes writing something and hitting send with
beautiful noisy messes
i’m tired and i don’t have much time. i need to publish something or i’m going to go mad. i have a lot of tabs open. one
contemplate
I’ve spent a lot of the past two years thinking about how to do these substack essays. Recently, I was getting so frustrated
all the channels 2
all the channels 1 i wrote a whole book about introspection, in part because i believe i’m pretty good at it, and i believe
packaging problem
I was doing the dishes last night and listening to some year-old youtube vlogs of myself doing my monthly status updates. One
behavior change
One of the central questions of my life is, how much control or influence do I have over my own behavior, really? A lot of my
writing on commutes
writing on commutes From 2013 to 2018, I used to write diligently on my phone on my commutes. I’d write both on the way to w
all the channels
variable rewards Today was a fairly typical day in which I spent most of my time in front of the computer, clicking around, ty
help me understand
The word belief originally meant something like “hold dear”, or “to care for”, or “to have faith in”. It’s since
improv
I like writing, so here I am. I don’t have a particular thing in mind that I want to write about, so I’m going to improvis
recent history
It used to be so normal for people to smoke cigarettes everywhere. Old photos of NBA games and boxing had a blue haze – you
get your motor runnin’
Get your motor runnin’Head out on the highwayLooking for adventureIn whatever comes our way Yeah, darlin’ gonna ma
the dynamism problem
(abandoned substack draft) “My propositions are elucidatory in this way: he who understands me finally recognizes them as se
kohai vs senpai
Kohai: I need help. I’m stuck. Knotted. Trapped. Overwhelmed. What do I do? Senpai: What do you want to do? Kohai: I want to
stressin’
(abandoned substack draft) I have seven different tabs open right now, each with a different draft of a different substack ess
junkyard of vague intentions
Earlier this morning I wrote 1,500 words, and then I dumped them in my junkyard (below, lol). I feel pretty good about it. Tho
writing from the heart
(abandoned substack draft) It’s funny how the bog of life’s troubles can creep up on you. Even when you’ve done the read
how to name things?
(abandoned substack draft) how to name things thinking is easy, information architecture is hard Noticed several of my creativ
aesthetic resonance
WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS FUCKING ESSAY. I WANT YOU TO CONSIDER YOUR AESTHETICS. BUT NO RIGHT NOW MORE IMPORTANTLY I WANT TO A
selfsense1. not tired but knotted
“Nobody heard him, the dead man,But still he lay moaning:I was much further out than you thought And not wa
resonance over coherence
This is an abandoned Substack draft from March 2023 I have hundreds of drafts and thousands of notes. Sometimes I feel a sense
nyc
sometimes experiences take a while to really blossom into their fullness. i finally visited nyc for the first time in february
luckmaxxing
we’ve come too farTo give up who we areSo let’s raise the barAnd our cups to the stars Longevity of songs One of my favori
scenius: with love comes criticism
(abandoned substack draft) I used to be a very active member of my local music scene. I’d attend a lot of shows. I wrote com
culture1- singapore, stereotypes, seeing, crossroads
Alright, Chinese New Year is a good topic since it’s CNY in a couple of days, and it’s a useful entry point for thinking a
Iron FAN, mk2, out of the cave
(abandoned substack post) solutions that extend beyond One of my favorite blogposts by Venkatesh Rao was about the Iron Man mo
scenius2: Write my way out – men of letters / erasmus,mersenne, stein
(abandoned substack draft – this one I’ll probably actually revisit and work again) “If my humors happen to plea
artful incompleteness
(abandoned substack draft) No piece of work can ever fully contextualize itself, you’ll go mad trying. But what if things we
recharge your talismans
(abandoned substack draft) meaningful objects matter because we’re all gonna die tend to them, attend to them, they are
how to fckn read
(abandoned substack post) I have been very helpful (1) to a lot of people in a lot of ways. But I can’t help you if you canâ
mediastudies 1
(abandoned substack post) feel like the title of this post should be a quote about polaroid I’ve always wanted to research a
transcendent incompleteness / in media res / media studies2
(Abandoned substack draft) how do we find joy in an existence within constraints? how does art break through the bandwidth lim
how to talk to people
(abandoned substack draft) how to talk to people most people are doing it pretty badly. god, so badly. it’s so fucking i
branching paths (jump cuts)
(abandoned substack draft) There’s a lot I want to talk about, but I will need many tries to begin to get it right. So hereâ
naming ceremony
this was me just freestyling and jamming about my substack Naming ceremony This is an associative exercise, just listing out t