for you

I post this here because I don’t want to make a big scene about it, and because I think you read this. Don’t talk to me about it, because I don’t want to. This is about how you behaved earlier. It was, in my eyes, petty, immature and uncalled for. It might seem like a small thing to you, and perhaps it is, but it bothered me, and I’m very sure it bothered everyone else as well- and that it is highly likely that everyone else thought even worse of you for it than I do.

What did you stand to gain from saving an extra 5 minutes? I don’t understand. Don’t explain it to me though, because I’m not interested. This is not the first time your irrational, selfish behaviour has baffled everyone.

I understand that you might have been tired, cranky, I don’t know. But that is weak reasoning for bad behaviour. You’re a really, really nice guy whenever everything’s going great, and I respect and appreciate that a lot. Yes, technically speaking I make mistakes too and am in no position and have no right to judge you, but everyone is judging everyone all the time whether we like it or not, so we might as well wisen up to that.

Do you feel bad for how you carried yourself? I think you ought to. Do your good deeds justify your bad ones? Perhaps. Perhaps your good exceeds your bad. But people don’t calculate things that way. An upstanding, moral member of society can have his reputation torn to shreds by one single act of negligence, even if his contributions far outweigh his mistake. I’m sure your friends are more forgiving. But nobody forgets this kind of thing.

Just letting you know. I’m not going to talk to you personally about it, and I don’t want to hear anything you might have to say. I’m going to try my best to treat you as if nothing had happened at all. Just remember that everything you do and say always has an impact on everyone else whether you like it or not. Please lah. We’re all getting too old for this sort of petty nonsense.