why is it that every time you think you’re starting to become a better person, that you’re going somewhere, something makes you realised that you’re back where you started, or possibly even worse?

It’s frustrating, upsetting, and hard to stomach.

another issue that’s been interesting me of late is about the compromise between personal identity and that of a collective. what’s right? what’s wrong?

it’s scary when you can’t tell, because what’s right for a few of you might work for you guys within the context of your group, but be wrong altogether in the rest of society.

Do we care about absolute truth? i’m pretty certain we’d never reach that in our lifetimes.

I suppose at the end of the day, even with your closest friends, you got to watch what you say. because there’s really no such thing as “among us, anything goes.”

I think I just realised my most fundamental mistake. and I think I better not talk about it. If fixing it fixes everything, you will notice.

But DAMN that makes life difficult! I suppose anonymous is the way to go.

More about this when i’m more awake.

confused and worried because what you hear alone is different from what you hear among the others
all we need is to close the first ear and the second will be at peace.
so brutal honesty, while it feels good- is pretty damn useless.
don’t forget this.

and knowing you, someday you’ll come back and contradict yourself again.