i believe, or try to believe,
\nthat if i try hard enough
\nand say it often enough
\nthen i will be happy and content
\nand not so alone
\n(it’s so cold)
\nand that what i hold on to
\nis not slipping away
\nplease no, don’t slip away<\/p>\n
maybe i just need
\nto put in more effort
\nmaybe i just need
\na little more time to see things clearer
\nbut when things look grey and you’re hoping for white
\nand you find out that it’s black after all
\nwhat do you do
\nhow does it feel<\/p>\n
i guess you move on
\nbut when you’re not there yet
\nand you’re struggling
\nbut not struggling at all<\/p>\n
do you understand?<\/p>\n
i really don’t want to think that you
\ndon’t want it as badly as the rest of us do
\nthough deep down i know it’s true
\nshould i try and fix you?
\ni believe you would want to want it
\ni hope you do
\nand i hope you will, because i need it like nothing else<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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