{"id":3054,"date":"2011-07-16T01:36:02","date_gmt":"2011-07-15T17:36:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.visakanv.com\/blog\/?p=3054"},"modified":"2025-03-13T09:30:02","modified_gmt":"2025-03-13T09:30:02","slug":"the-first-thirty-weeks","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.visakanv.com\/archives\/2011\/07\/16\/the-first-thirty-weeks\/","title":{"rendered":"The First Thirty Weeks."},"content":{"rendered":"

The following is a summary of the first 30 weeks of my 90 Week Project.<\/em><\/p>\n

Week 1:<\/strong>
\nPhilosophical introspection during gym workout.<\/p>\n

Perfectionism as excuse: I will dare to fail along the way.<\/p>\n

Binging & Moderation: The law of marginal diminishing utility- consider desensitization. All should be done in moderation. (The Middle Way?)<\/p>\n

Introspective spring cleaning: Everything feels messy and disorganized inside the head. Need to tidy up. Been putting it off, waiting for all the lights to turn green. Need to build up slowly rather than try to do all at once.<\/p>\n

I want to simplify my thoughts, ideas and processes- give them clarity and focus. This is not easy to do. I want to shift my operating mode from extensive- which is my natural state- to intensive, which I believe I am thoroughly capable of, but not as habitually acquainted with. The first week wasn\u2019t anything to be proud of- if anything, it was a sobering reminder of how easy it is to slip up and fall back into the same old patterns and routines when you\u2019re not paying enough attention.<\/p>\n

Week 2.<\/strong>
\nFelt unsatisfied. Did not work out. Met friends. Read little. Practiced guitar little. Did not keep track thoroughly.<\/p>\n

Plus side: Spent less money than usual. Did not blog enough. Fell into old patterns for a bit. I don\u2019t want to be TOO hard on myself though. I need to find that balance that will keep me from slipping behind, yet push me forward at the same time.<\/p>\n

Week 3.
\n<\/strong>has been good. Went boxing twice, felt like car accident. A little bit less sensitive and angry at others. It still bothers me how ignorant I used to be, but I have to consciously stop myself from overcompensating by going to the other extreme. I\u2019ll play it by ear, one step at a time. I went to the zoo with my friends, which was a pleasant experience! I\u2019m going jamming later with some other friends.<\/p>\n

Week 4.
\n<\/strong> feel empowered this week. I lost a little bit of weight from not eating enough, and also perhaps from the intensity of the circuit training at boxing last week. I hit the gym on Monday, and went boxing on Tuesday. I spent time with my girlfriend on Wednesday, and hung out with a friend on Thursday. I am going to catch Baybeats later today (it\u2019s a free music festival at the Esplanade! I did a bit more reading than I usually do, but I didn\u2019t play as much guitar as I would have had liked to. Haven\u2019t spent much money at all!<\/p>\n

Week 5.
\n<\/strong> It feels weird to do this post because I\u2019m doing it when it\u2019s already Week 6- so I\u2019m sort of looking back with a distanced sort of perspective. This week was eventful. I went to the hospital with my family to visit my sister who just gave birth to another baby boy. This week was kind of a bummer because I didn\u2019t really do all that much. It wasn\u2019t bad, but it was kinda mediocre with regards to how I handled it. I\u2019m not satisfied because I have much higher standards of myself now. There\u2019s no turning back. I must not sleep late any more.<\/p>\n

Week 6.<\/strong>
\nI ought to focus more on the little things.<\/p>\n

Week 7.<\/strong>
\nFitness doing great. Look and feel good, strong and fit. Amazed by my own commitment to my workouts, especially when feeling lethargic.<\/p>\n

I haven\u2019t been keeping track of my finances very religiously, but I also know that I haven\u2019t been spending much money at all. I keep indulgences to an absolute bare minimum. Still smoking, but not as much, and cravings aren’t as strong as before. Decided to write about The Smile Experiment. Feel like days pass by without enough focus. Need more focus. Need to track better.<\/p>\n

Week 8.<\/strong>
\nSolid workout. Average life. I fell sick, had an interesting game of poker, put together a little birthday celebration for my girlfriend and spent the rest of the time recovering from a throat infection.<\/p>\n

Nothing special, but nothing too bad either. Not much to say. It\u2019s been an alright week. Need to step up my game.<\/p>\n

Week 9.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Average week.
\nI was still recovering from my throat infection on Monday and Tuesday.
\nHit the gym twice, both decent-to-good sessions.
\nSpent quality time with family and with the girlfriend. Importance of investing in relationships.
\nMade some money on poker, but disappointed because of bad plays on my part.
\nWent jamming with my friends, felt like it was fairly productive.
\nMet a couple of friends. Felt a little bit like a waste of time, but it was a pleasant waste of time.
\nSpent a bit more money than I would\u2019ve liked to have had, but not all that much actually.
\nNeed to write more, do more, keep moving forward.
\nI think i\u2019m reaching a point where I\u2019ve started to stagnate after pushing my equilibrium point further- and now I need to push myself harder before, to keep moving forward.<\/p>\n

Less talk, more action!<\/p>\n

Week 10.<\/strong>
\nCHECKPOINT REACHED!
\nIt\u2019s really quite arbitrary, but I find that giving myself these checkpoints allows me to progress better- so the ends justify the means?<\/p>\n

My last gym session was unusual. I felt more tired and weak than I usually do because of lack of sleep and water, yet I did hit the weights quite hard anyway and am still sore two days later, which is somewhat unprecedented.<\/p>\n

Poker night was great, happy with myself. I would be very happy to consistently play like that every time. We\u2019ll see how it goes. It\u2019s still far too early to generalize.<\/p>\n

Spent time with the family again.<\/p>\n

Didn\u2019t spend enough alone time with the girlfriend this week. Mental note to do so more next week.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m really, really happy with how much my body looks and feels after 10 weeks of working out. I\u2019m happy with how I think, and generally with how I act- though there is still plenty of room for improvement.<\/p>\n

My main goal in the next 10 weeks is to sustain\/improve my fitness, improve my routines, and most importantly, to inculcate and maintain a constant sense of urgency of sorts. More on this later. Goodnight!<\/p>\n

Week 11.<\/strong>
\nWeek 11 has been good, and reasonably pleasant. I had fun playing music, made money playing poker, spent some quality time with my girlfriend and my friends, had a good week in terms of fitness\u2026 everything is going according to plan. Time to step up my game.<\/p>\n

Week 12.<\/strong>
\nThis hasn\u2019t been the best of weeks, but on hindsight it wasn\u2019t all that bad either- better than the week when I was sick, at least!
\nI hit the gym once, and decided that I needed an extended rest to recover from accumulated fatigue- so I haven\u2019t worked out all week. I feel like I\u2019ve lost a little bit of muscle mass, but I think the strength gains I\u2019ll get from the recovery period will help me build more in double-time.
\nI had a bad poker game. You win some and you learn some.
\nMy personal life has been a little bit more hectic and harrowing than usual.
\nWork has been negligible, thankfully- and I imagine it\u2019s going to be the same this week.
\nI had a great jam with my weekly jam-buddies.
\nI\u2019ve been reading more, I think!
\nI got some things done, but not enough.
\nNeed to scale up the intensity of my scrutiny.<\/p>\n

Week 13<\/strong>
\nThis has been the worst week so far. Seriously. It has been emotionally and psychologically very draining for me. I have had a lot to deal with. I have been physically exhausted- the haze has taken a toll on my health, giving me a bad cough and irritated eyes. Some of the people I care the most about have been going through very difficult times, and I\u2019m finding it impossible to help or take care of all of them even as I\u2019m physically falling apart. I\u2019ve been sleeping far too little, drinking far too little water, and I feel like a zombie.My consciousness is diminished- I find myself spending money more freely than I\u2019d like to, smoking too much, and then beating myself up over it more than necessary. It has been so difficult. I feel physically weakened- my fitness level, which has been a source of pride and confidence for me these past few weeks, has been diminishing, and I feel skinnier. I feel simultaneously crushed and overstretched, like I\u2019m spread too thin and yet spending too much time in my own head.<\/p>\n

I need to breathe, to relax, to take things easy, at the same time, I\u2019m supposed to pay attention to things and not allow my discipline and self-awareness to slip. I feel like a mess of contradictions- I know I\u2019m a mess of contradictions, I know we all are, and we all have to navigate these difficult dichotomies and that\u2019s what it means to be human\u2026 I suppose I just really need to vent, to scream, to damage and destroy something- yet at the same time, I don\u2019t have any energy to do any of that.<\/p>\n

If anything, I find comfort in the knowledge that I am not going to give up. I don\u2019t give up. Giving up and giving in is not in my vocabulary. This is different. I know what must be done, I know what cannot be done- and if I stray from the general path that I have defined for myself, well, it hurts- physically- and I\u2019m forced to get back right on to it.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m not making a lot of sense right now. But I will. I know it. And I will show it. Watch me. I will remember to philosophize under duress, I will learn to find happiness and joy and a sense of awe at the beauty of human existence- even in my most miserable moments.<\/p>\n

Week 14<\/strong>
\nRecovery\/Break. This week was spent mostly recovering from the general malaise of the previous week. It wasn\u2019t exactly a break, but I\u2019m good and ready to get right back into this.<\/p>\n

Week 15<\/strong>
\nA substantial milestone, we\u2019re 1\/6th of the way through since we\u2019ve started. Not at a particularly high point at the moment, but significantly higher than when I started. Things are at a bit of a lull. Someone I care deeply about has being going through some very difficult times, and this has been taking quite a toll on me as well- or at least, that\u2019s the excuse I\u2019ve been giving myself this week for being semi-unproductive.<\/p>\n

Interestingly, I\u2019ve been meeting people every single day this week. I feel like I haven\u2019t been setting aside enough time for myself- for my fitness, and to blog, read, write and to indulge in other introspective pursuits. I\u2019ve been smoking, drinking and spending more money than I\u2019d normally allow myself to- I don\u2019t want to be too hard on myself, yet I don\u2019t want to lose the road.<\/p>\n

I will make it, though! Hanging in there.<\/p>\n

Week 16<\/strong>
\nThis week was kind of blah. I\u2019ve been sleeping very late. I\u2019ve been having mild bouts of melancholy, but they aren\u2019t even a tenth of the traumatic and depressing things that they used to be- I\u2019m quite proud to say that I have substantially improved my ability to manage my own feelings, fairly effectively. This cheered me up quite a bit. I haven\u2019t been drinking enough water, though, and I\u2019ve still been smoking a little bit too much.<\/p>\n

I got to play a gig with my band! I really, really needed that. It felt really good! I missed that.<\/p>\n

I really, really need to improve my sleeping habits if I want to get more productive.<\/p>\n

The drama that has been dominating my personally life for the past two weeks has finally subsided, and I think I\u2019m ready to get back on track, full steam ahead!<\/p>\n

Week 17
\n<\/strong>This was (generally speaking) the recovery week for me. I\u2019ve been working on my sleeping habits, smoking less. I went for a run, which felt great. Physically I feel like I\u2019ve made progress towards getting back to my peak condition. I feel primed and ready again, which I haven\u2019t felt in weeks. I had a good jam with the band and it feels like we\u2019re making progress in that, too. I did make a blunder with the last blog post- but I\u2019m not going to beat myself up too much over that, because it is clear where I went wrong, and I\u2019m going to focus my energy instead on doing my best to avoid making that same mistake again.<\/p>\n

This week will be good! I hope that by Week 20 I\u2019m starting to make substantial improvements again. It still does feel like I hit a plateau after 10-12 weeks. I think it\u2019s mostly a matter of sleep, water, fitness and clarity of mind.<\/p>\n

Week 18<\/strong>
\nA generally uneventful week, which is a welcome change. My personal life has been hectic and dramatic. I feel like I can finally, really get back on track on things now.<\/p>\n

Some slight changes here and there. I\u2019m going to be focusing a lot more on managing my resources more effectively, and tune out everything else a bit.<\/p>\n

Week 19<\/strong>
\nI followed my brother to work, I met my friends practically every day. I went for a 3.5km run. I played a gig with Gloria that didn\u2019t turn out too well, but that was okay. Felt lethargic and tired. Didn\u2019t blog at all. Had duty in camp until late, which was a peaceful, solitary experience. Lerping came back from Australia, and I met the whole group. Spent a late night at Damien\u2019s place the next day, then went to Chomp Chomp the day after to celebrate Lerping\u2019s birthday.<\/p>\n

Week 20<\/strong>
\nBig milestone week! I hit the gym. Mantaining at least one workout a week- which is enough to sort of stay where I am in terms of fitness, but not making any progress. This week was all about my brother\u2019s wedding- preparations, ceremony, reception. Found time to play a gig with Gloria in between, which was fun. Fell sick from poor eating\/drinking\/sleeping habits again- something I really need to cut out.<\/p>\n

Week 21<\/strong>
\nWell, time for a bit of reflection, I should think!<\/p>\n

I\u2019m really happy- in fact, generally speaking, I\u2019ve never been happier. Of course, I\u2019ve had happy moments- getting back together with my girlfriend, playing really good live shows- but I think it\u2019s also worth thinking about happiness in general, as a sort of state of mind. I think happiness is largely self-derived- you give it to yourself, and it\u2019s entirely possible to be happier just by learning to think and see things differently.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve decided to discontinue the regular workout and poker posts- I find that they\u2019re kind of redundant, unnecessary, and even altogether counter-productive. This is because they are manifestations of a very conditional kind of mindset- by conditional I mean that I evaluate my self-worth based on things like how good my workouts are, or how much money I make in my poker games, and these arbitrary measurements keep me constantly anxious, and from performing at my best. I will continue to keep track of my workouts and poker games at my own time and pace in my written journals.<\/p>\n

So I\u2019m largely happier because I\u2019m a lot less anxious about things. I\u2019ve learnt not to sweat the small stuff, to worry less about superficial, silly things like winning verbal (and online) arguments.<\/p>\n

It feels really good. If this general state of happiness is the only thing that comes out of all this thinking and writing, it be completely worth it. But what\u2019s exciting is that I know this is just the beginning. This mindset is going to allow me to accomplish a lot more than I ever have been able to- I know it.<\/p>\n

What else can I talk about? I\u2019m fitter, happier, more productive- and mostly because I no longer obsess about those things. I think that\u2019s so elegant, and applies to a lot of accomplishments in a lot of fields. If you want to do well in your studies, for example, I think the best strategy is to care less about your grades and more about finding pleasure in learning things. I\u2019m repeating myself, I know.<\/p>\n

I think this particular blog post has run its course, it\u2019s past its sweet spot and I\u2019ve forgotten some of what I was going to say here. But that\u2019s okay. I have a lot more to say on other things!<\/p>\n

Week 23<\/strong>
\nWeek 23 is a transitional week of sorts. I\u2019ve been having fun and relaxing, spending time with family, friends and the girlfriend. I did go for a run, and I did hit the gym. I allowed myself to spend a bit more money than I usually do, in the name of festive cheer and goodwill. All in all it\u2019s been a good week.<\/p>\n

I want to address that last statement for a second- \u201cit\u2019s been a good week\u201d. There are, of course, no such thing as good weeks- only a week that I believe I have handled rather well. I made this a good week for me, for the most part, somewhat. There aren\u2019t really such things.<\/p>\n

I hit the gym with about 70% of my maximum possible intensity (so far), and I\u2019m now really sore- but I feel good, I feel like I\u2019m sort of getting back on track a little. I went for a run that wasn\u2019t as perfect as I wanted it to be, but it was good that I went to begin with, and I feel like I\u2019m getting warmed up.<\/p>\n

I think it\u2019s cute\/funny how people either embrace new years or deny them. You can pretend that it\u2019s a big deal or pretend it\u2019s no deal at all- but in reality it\u2019s a bit of both. Well, in absolute reality, in the context of the universe, it doesn\u2019t make any difference or sense whatsoever- but in the context of men, it most certainly does- so one ought to acknowledge it. It\u2019s a minor opportunity to use something nonsensical and arbitrary to your advantage, and you ought to seize it. It\u2019s a superficial change, that number on your calendar or mobile phone- but one that shakes you because you\u2019ve grown so accustomed to 2010.<\/p>\n

2011 won\u2019t be good for you. But you\u2019ll make 2011 good. Because you can. You can make every single day good, too, and you should. (Times like this I really feel that language is really limited, and that I need to deliberate on it to find a more clear way of expressing myself. So much of philosophical problems and arguments are simply misunderstandings caused by language.)<\/p>\n

Back to me. What am I doing?<\/p>\n

* I\u2019m going to run a half-marathon in May, and I\u2019ve started training for it.
\n* I\u2019ve started de-cluttering my life and I\u2019m selling a lot of my stuff away.
\n* I have financial goals which I intend to meet by resuming my daily expenditure tracking.
\n* I\u2019m becoming a better musician, artist and writer- or at least, I\u2019m trying to be, and making a much more concerted effort than ever before<\/p>\n

That\u2019s enough for this sort of simplified summary post! Keep fighting!<\/p>\n

Week 24<\/strong>
\nWow, 6 more weeks and I\u2019ll be done with a third of this movement!
\nI want to keep this clear and succinct, and focus on what I\u2019ve learnt so far, and what I\u2019m implementing.<\/p>\n

The Sleep And Water Rule.<\/em>
\nThis is the absolute most basic rule every human being ought to bear in mind. Curiously, a lot of people tend to overlook this. It\u2019s like driving with a dirty windscreen. Dehydration and lack of sleep can cut down the most potent warriors. Simple tasks become difficult. The mind and body both struggle to function altogether. Being sleep-deprived could be a little bit like being perpetually drunk, only worse- because it isn\u2019t even fun.
\nSleep, and drink water- above all else.<\/p>\n

Measurement = Management.<\/em>
\nI\u2019ve repeated myself about this a few times- the repetition helps me get down to it better each time- if you keep track of things, you\u2019ll find yourself naturally starting to manage them better. I experimented with this for my finances for a while, for my fitness and smoking, and I found myself spending less, becoming more fit and smoking less. I discontinued the habit for a while, but I\u2019m picking it right back up and it feels damn good to be back on track again. Really, really good. Relevant information is knowledge, and knowledge is power.<\/p>\n

My finances are the main focus here, followed by my fitness, and my smoking. The priorities haven\u2019t changed at all.<\/p>\n

Being Physically Fit = Awesome<\/em>
\nThere\u2019s really nothing else like it. It\u2019s very simplistic and primal but powerful and empowering. I was quickly seeing huge fitness gains about 10-15 weeks ago with the simple formula of \u201cHit The Gym Every 3 Days\u201d. It was incredibly easy, and it felt really, really good and fulfilling- every workout was amazing, and the progress I felt- when I looked at myself in the mirror after a shower, when I put on a t-shirt and it felt tighter, when I find doors and bags miraculously feeling lighter, when I felt lighter on my feet and more in control of everything I did. I discontinued my Every-Third-Day mantra to try and accommodate other things, but it quickly fell apart because I wasn\u2019t disciplined enough- routines very obviously trumps improvisation at an early stage of a workout regime. Still, again- I\u2019m picking up the fitness bug again, and I\u2019ve very quickly re-gained what I might\u2019ve lost over the past few weeks- I\u2019m rapidly approaching peak fitness again, and it\u2019s incredible.<\/p>\n

The Challenge Paradigm<\/em>
\nI\u2019ve spoken on several times about what I\u2019ve learnt from poker and from video games and other things- and I\u2019m repeating myself here, but only because I\u2019m trying to phrase it more effectively each time- and I\u2019ve distilled from all that the simple idea of challenging myself. (It always seems ridiculously, deceptively and even insultingly simple at the end- but you can never quite appreciate it until you\u2019ve been through it yourself.) So what I\u2019m doing- and this is what I\u2019m saying is going to make this blog a lot more interesting- is framing my goals, ambitions and problems into challenges that can be completed. Because you get to witness me doing stuff, in real-time. It\u2019ll be like reality TV. But awesome.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m going to start posting specific challenges as blog posts, and you guys can help me along the way! Wait for it!<\/p>\n

Week 26<\/strong>
\nThis has been a pretty silly and unproductive week so far. I\u2019ve been sleeping poorly, and am paying for it with what feels like a throat infection. But otherwise, it\u2019s been fun, and it\u2019s been a decent break of sorts, and sometimes we all need that, yeah? Back to work this week.<\/p>\n

Week 27<\/strong>
\nThis week was alright, I guess. Not much to say about it! Didn\u2019t do much. = Hung out with friends. Had a pleasant time. Got some reading done. I guess the most interesting thing is that I\u2019ve been writing a lot more. Oh, and getting the laptop. And stuff like that. I feel like I\u2019m about to experience a substantial burst in productivity. But I might be too optimistic. We\u2019ll see.<\/p>\n

Week 28<\/strong>
\nMy eldest brother got married this week, so that\u2019s pretty much what I\u2019ve been spending most if not all my time on! I had a kickass gym workout on monday, I re-strung my guitar, wrote the Labels blog entry, completed Mass Effect 2 (beautiful, beautiful game!) and generally had quite a bit of fun. It was pretty much a good week, though I was a little liberal with my spending and other stuff like that. But that\u2019s okay, it\u2019s been a happy week!\u2019<\/p>\n

Week 29<\/strong>
\nWow, we\u2019re almost hitting the 1\/3 mark!<\/p>\n

The most important insight I\u2019ve derived from this is that progress takes time. It seems obvious, but it isn\u2019t, really. I\u2019ve been serendipitously laying the foundation for this for most of my life- (well, if you\u2019re talking about doing something serendipitously then you can\u2019t really quantify it) and I\u2019ve been semi-conscientiously working towards it for about 30 weeks. If I may be brutally honest with myself, most of my time, energy and resources have been utilized sub-optimally even during this period of \u201cintense focus\u201d. My intense focus has neither been particularly intense nor focused.<\/p>\n

Yet, even with all those setbacks and inefficiencies, I have been making progress. I\u2019m fitter than I\u2019ve ever been. I\u2019m happier than I\u2019ve ever been. I\u2019ve been, holistically speaking, making better decisions than I ever have (though I still make bad decisions all the time, I make them less often.) My finances are working out quite okay. I\u2019ve made substantial growth in terms of personal motivation, perspective, goal-setting and desire.<\/p>\n

If I could re-name this blog I would call it Clawing Out Of Mediocrity. I think that\u2019s the most interesting thing about this blog, that\u2019s it\u2019s selling point. I\u2019m not a life coach or guru telling you that I\u2019ve got it all figured out and that you should follow my 7 step program to find fulfilment and nirvana. I don\u2019t have an \u201cafter\u201d picture for you to want to work towards. I am, just as you probably are, ineffective, inefficient, human. I\u2019m not that good at anything- I\u2019m a better-than-average writer, maybe, but not good enough that it counts for much- and I don\u2019t deserve any sort of accolades.<\/p>\n

So why should you be reading this blog? Because I\u2019m one of you. I\u2019m Mr. Mediocre, and I\u2019m tired of it. I\u2019m tired of underperforming, I\u2019m tired of feeling like there\u2019s not much going for me, that life is boring, mundane and unfulfilling. And yet, perhaps most important of all, I have not accomplished what I want to accomplish.<\/p>\n

You should stay with me because I don\u2019t know where I\u2019m going. I don\u2019t even know if this will ultimately count for anything- although I will admit that I believe strongly that it will. I think so because I feel like I\u2019m making progress- a phrase that I\u2019ve been throwing out incessantly, I admit, but because I feel its true.<\/p>\n

I think it\u2019s very poignant to note that I\u2019ve spent almost 30 weeks working towards something and yet the results still aren\u2019t powerfully, concretely obvious. That\u2019s, to repeat myself, the most important thing I\u2019ve learnt. Success doesn\u2019t come overnight, or even over a week, or a month, or a year. It takes a lot longer than that. And I don\u2019t think it takes superhuman dedication and force of will, I think it simply takes consistent, measured effort.
\nThings are going to get interesting, I\u2019m not totally sure how soon or how much but I just really, really have a good feeling about all this.
\nThe next stage.<\/p>\n

Successful people have productive routines. It\u2019s painfully obvious that if you want to be successful, you\u2019re going to have to have productive routines too. I used to shy away from any kind of conscious routine-forming, unfairly associating it with rigidity and regimentation. But humans are creatures of habit, and in the absence of productive routines we will fall prey to unproductive ones- AKA story of my adolescence.<\/p>\n

The first stage of my 90 week experiment- weeks 1 to 30- focused on documentation.<\/p>\n

The second stage of my experiment- weeks 30 to 60- will be focused on conscientious adaptation.<\/p>\n

Week 30<\/strong>
\nSee Week 29.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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