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(oct2022 thread<\/a>) a thing I haven\u2019t quite been able to connect the dots on properly, but have an increasing felt sense of: there is a way in which people get mad at the world to the degree to which they\u2019ve abdicated themselves<\/p>\n\n\n\n

trying to explain this with words is tedious and tricky business. I can think of other people who\u2019ve said similar things but I\u2019d prefer not to bring them up because of the associations, connotations, implications that I\u2019d rather not get tangled with<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m not saying that the world *isn\u2019t* a maddening place. There\u2019s all manner of cruelty and injustice, there\u2019s many lifetimes worth of horrors to be mad about being enacted every day<\/p>\n\n\n\n

nevertheless we live our lives in the world that Is. everybody\u2019s gotta eat, everybody\u2019s gotta sleep, unrelenting rage can only keep you going maybe a week, a month, a year. at some point you might wanna start strategizing and ask yourself how you wanna live in the madworld<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m also not saying \u201ctherefore retreat into yourself, look out for only yourself, imprison yourself in a fortress of solitude, numb yourself to all emotion, accumulate power and use it to seek more power\u201d \u2013 that\u2019s a miserable way to live. As a dramatic teen I said I\u2019d rather die<\/p>\n\n\n\n

[this whole thread so far feels like I\u2019m next door to the room in which the actual thread I want to be writing is. like I\u2019m in the restroom while the band is playing outside]<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I think the thing is that love and fear is at the heart of everything, and talking openly about this is complicated because people aren\u2019t necessarily ready to hear it, and so as a result a tremendous amount of our communications is either hedging or unproductive yelling<\/p>\n\n\n\n

hmmmm that\u2019s still not\u2026 I guess I wonder if people are always already focusing their time and energy on what they want to see more of. I think there\u2019s some truth to that. It\u2019s complicated by the fact that people are multi-faceted, and might be in a disequilibrium type of state… (end)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2731 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

(og thread, mar2022<\/a>) there is a very radical, powerful state of mind, state of being, that people throughout history have recurringly tried to talk about, but it’s v hard to get the point across because people who don’t want to hear about it will look for problems with the imperfect utterance<\/p>\n\n\n\n

its the feeling of being the author of your own fate\/destiny, of being in charge, being truly self-sovereign, earning your own respect and admiration, feeling your own body and mind standing by to assist you, the captain of your soul<\/p>\n\n\n\n

we can talk shit about this all day, argue about the details, blah blah, the comments section appended to this is tens of thousands of pages long full of procrastinators & avoiders looking for fine print technicalities &excuses to support their argument that they’re not in charge<\/p>\n\n\n\n

n ya kno what, if you argue against it, you’re right. you’re not ready. it’s wise of your fear to protect you from the absolutely searing light of self-responsibility. it’s like a weight on your shoulders that will break your back if you don’t have the right form. u have to train<\/p>\n\n\n\n

this quote is in the right spirit of it there is no test to pass but your own you have to seize it for yourself there are a bunch of movies that have scenes that try to capture the emotional reality of this, I remember Into The Spider-Verse has it<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Moana has it (the call isn’t out there at all, it’s inside me),
Frozen has it (you are the one you’ve been waiting for all of your life)
it’s you
you are already the monarch of your life but you have to see it and accept it<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i don’t think I could have shipped Introspect without listening to frozen, moana, spiderverse, superman, avatar, etc soundtracks etc over and over again lol<\/p>\n\n\n\n

it’s not an intellectual thing, you need the emotional reckoning, it comes from the gut and heart<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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