Every so often I encounter something that pulls me out of the box that I\u2019m currently in. It\u2019s 2:51pm and I\u2019m really sleepy. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The thing that pulled me out of my box for a short few minutes was reading about Elon Musk\u2019s tunnel-boring company. It just seemed so ludicrous \u2013 the man is in a position to do whatever he likes. He thinks from first principles. He can say, \u201cWhat\u2019s the biggest hole we can make in the ground this week\u201d, and then make a goddamn big hole in the ground. What is the equivalent in my life? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I think one of my challenges is to change the way I think about my money, my time, my power, my ability to effect change. And I think one of the reasons I feel so tired, flustered, frustrated, is that I feel like I haven\u2019t been an agent in a long time. I haven\u2019t executed properly in a long time. I haven\u2019t made a big hole in the ground. And it sort of saps away at me. A man needs to continually be working on himself, I think. There\u2019s probably a counterpoint to that, but I don\u2019t care for the counterpoint right now. I want to explore the simple idea of \u2013 what am I doing? How can I do it more? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
What am I doing? The main things in my life \u2013 first of all I\u2019m working in marketing for a software company. It\u2019s a team I love. It\u2019s an environment I love. But I feel like I haven\u2019t made a huge dent or impact in a long time. The best thing I did was almost 3 years ago, and there hasn\u2019t been a new best thing in way too long. In a thousand days, what do I have to show for myself? A sort of steadily increasing graph, sure. But the thing I own isn\u2019t as beautiful as it should be. It doesn\u2019t sing the way it should. And I have been slow and hesitant to make that happen. I should just make that happen.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(2023 update: cool to note, while going through old notes etc, that I subsequently grew a twitter audience, wrote FAN and Introspect… nice progress. Let’s think bigger again.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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