{"id":13672,"date":"2020-06-07T15:57:00","date_gmt":"2020-06-07T15:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.visakanv.com\/archives\/?p=13672"},"modified":"2025-03-08T09:27:01","modified_gmt":"2025-03-08T09:27:01","slug":"turning-30-31","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.visakanv.com\/archives\/2020\/06\/07\/turning-30-31\/","title":{"rendered":"turning 30, 31"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

30<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I just turned 30. I kinda try to do an update every year, though I\u2019m not sure if I\u2019ve been super deliberate about that. I vaguely feel like I must have one for when I turned 20, but I don\u2019t know for sure. Regardless, 30 feels like a particularly important milestone to commemorate with some reflection and introspection.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m writing this on my phone. I didn\u2019t have a smartphone until I was 21 going on 22, so I couldn\u2019t have written 20 unless I did it on my computer. Technology is one thing that has changed pretty dramatically in the past decade.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I now have \u201can audience\u201d – over 20,000 followers on Twitter, something like 800-900 subscribers on YouTube, maybe 400+ on my tinyletter. People invite me on their podcasts and interview me about things. That\u2019s pretty cool. I\u2019ve longed believed that this would eventually happen for me, but I\u2019m not so sure that I was certain it would happen before my 30th birthday. I was mentally prepared for it to take another decade or two. So I\u2019m grateful for this. It\u2019s a pretty great audience, too: thoughtful, introspective, tender, supportive, curious. I\u2019m blessed beyond my wildest dreams. Which means it\u2019s time to dream bigger.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve written an ebook that\u2019s sold over 500 copies- and I haven\u2019t even shipped a version that I\u2019m truly proud of yet. This thing\u2019s got legs! I believe that it\u2019s tapped into something substantial, something I believe that thousands of people will want to read and internalize. It feels pretty good to be where I am right now. I have a vision, a Mission that I believe in, solid amounts of proof that what I\u2019m doing is working…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

31<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

It’s 2021-jun-07-1347, the day after my birthday. I spent most of my birthday with my family, which was pleasant, but I didn’t quite have the time or space to sit down and think about my life \u2013 which is what I actually like to do on my birthdays. So I’ll be doing it now instead. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

31 doesn’t really quite real, not in 2021 when we’re in the second year of a global pandemic. I think 30 felt very real (did I write that on my last birthday? Did I write anything at all on the day of? I’ll have to check afterwards.) I don’t like that it feels like I’m \u2013 we’re \u2013 in some sort of arrested development, like the world hasn’t really been moving, things haven’t really been happening. I know that can’t possibly be true but that’s how it feels. It’s an interesting feeling to investigate, though. Like, could there be any truth in it? The pandemic definitely put a dampener on some things, I’m thinking particularly of music and video. What good music came out in 2020? WAP was the most distinctive thing in pop music. I loved that Hayley Williams did Petals for Armor, and Taylor Swift fans will probably think of it as the year Folklore came out, but what about music in general? I’m sure there’s stuff, I’m talking about how much of it reached me, as someone who doesn’t particularly make a deliberate effort to seek it, but does keep an eye\/ear out. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I think @vgr said something somewhere like, there’s less serendipity when people aren’t out and about as much. Yeah- that quarantine is too scripted<\/a>. It’s the opposite of lively and interesting. Everything gets dull. The smart move is to try and lean into this, to use this opportunity to switch gears and do things that benefit from the general slowness and dullness of things. And maybe I’ve done some of that but I don’t even feel like doing it, I feel like I got a lot of that out of my system over so many years in my teens and twenties and that now was supposed to be a time of action for me. Well, there’s no sense grovelling and whining about it. I have to accept the things I cannot change, blah blah. See, I’m in my 30s, I’m wiser now. I don’t linger as long in things. Ha ha. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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