i feel like i might be interested in going to uni once I get my shit in order
i want to spend 2-3 years devoted intensely to fitness, to reading, to music, to writing, to blogging, to doing standup, to building my personal brand and identity, to building communities
i’ll document it every step of the way
what do you think a person will be like after reading 1000 books
i want to document the whole process and see what it’s liek before/after
focused, dedicated, deliberate
cover the 100 top films that everyone’s supposedly supposed to watch
casablanca, citizen kane, etc
write a full autobiography and several works of fiction
not because anybody would want to read it
writing as a tool of discovery
who am I right now? what is the source of my identity? i often feel like i’m half living in the past
i’m not used to being 22
i want to have kopi with every single person that means anything to me
one by one
and chronicle the conversations that emerge
What have you been smoking?
marlboro reds, mostly
I never quite understood your extensive need for self-reflection. It’s almost like you’re reifying (and developing a strange, almost obsessive fascination) with your Self through yourself. True, it is important to ‘know who you are’, to understand yourself as a person as best as possible, but there will also never be an end goal to this. There will never be a point to “document[ing] the whole process and see what it’s like before/after etc” because we are ALWAYS in a state of becoming. It’s like trying to describe the shape of water – doing so will only ever limit yourself to describing the container of your personality rather than getting to the essence of being. Move on from this self-analyzing (keep it to a certain extent of course, but move away from an obsessiveness of it) and contribute in tangible ways. You can most surely be capable of this.
Stick to writing commentary mang, I don’t need to see the pretentious wanky side of you